It’s Valentine’s Day.
We have our annual double date with Tammy & Craig. We are going to the Victor and then we gamble at the casino. Perhaps a jackpot is in the future. I’m not sure what to wear tonight. It’s a beautiful day, it’s sunny, cold. I went for a walk this morning around the water, and on the way back stopped at Fife Bakery to pick up some bread. Chris and I took Hanky to Trout Lake for a stroll, he almost made it around the entire lake, but Chris picked him up for about 5 minutes of the walk. He’s sleeping next to me on the little couch in the office. I love my office room. It’s so pretty so many favorite things are in here. It makes me happy being in here and with Chris working from home all the time, I don’t get to spend as much time in here. i should kick him out more often because our main living area is stale and I don’t like much about it. I want all new furniture, new set up, more color. I want to take some time and really draw it out, versus buying one piece. That feels like a bandaid. I know that I want to feel the same way in the whole house as I feel when I’m in the office. I should change the bedroom too. I think where the bookshelf it, I would like to have something with 4 larger drawers on the bottom and then bookshelves on top up to the ceiling. Feels like something that I would need to have customized. I wonder if the same closet people could come back and build against the wall. Omg and then also they can build something for under our tv in the living room. I think I might want the living room tv stand/storage to be a blue color, maybe a cobalt. Give us a little personality, especially since Chris wants to keep our walls all white. And I want a round kitchen table, with perhaps a bench on the window side. I saw these pretty pink pedal chairs on Wayfair and thought about buying 2, keeping one in the corner of the living room, the other as an extra chair at the table. Then buying 2 different chairs that are the main ones Chris and I sit in while we eat. I want to have a little dresser/sidebar/cabinet for behind the couch, between the kitchen table. Maybe that can be the same blue. The place needs a facelift, it needs to represent where we are now as a couple, and how far we’ve come mentally. How things have changed, our careers are different, we’re overall in a better, more comfortable place. I was looking at old photos of myself, from many years ago, and I thought wow look at her, she’s got style. What happened to me? How did I end up with leggings and oversized t-shirts and sweaters as my vibe? These are all signs of how well I’m doing mentally. That I am thinking and caring about my surroundings again, and how I present myself to the world. I think a lot about the person I want to be, continue to be, and how I would want to be remembered. I keep that at the forefront of my mind as I make choices. I’m committed to it. And I’m doing small steps, changing certain decisions, keeping promises I’m making to myself. I have to get ready for dinner and our Valentine’s date. Au revoir.